h*ll hath no fury.....

*sigh*
its been quite a trip these few weeks.....Brian has been injured in a tractor accident. I bawled my eyes out when I found out! I couldnt stop crying for at least a good 40 minutes! NOW....Whenever Frann and I go to a bridal show and we pass either Nashua OR epping either coming to or FROM the show....I TRY to convince adam to stop by so I can see Brian and see if hes ok. I worry about him. I love him all to pieces; hes the 1st man that has made me feel this happy. every single time I see OR talk to him he makes me laugh AND he puts a smile on my face. Loving someone and BEING IN LOVE with them are TWO TOTALLY different things.

So why do I feel so damned pissed at frann that I want to rip her head off??? like....HOW DARE she?? its like she developed a heart of ice overnight!! WTF???

Now frann is complaining of being tired.....time limits....etc. if shes gonna start this....HELL NO im not gonna go anywhere with her anymore. perhaps brian was right.....Frann=drama!! :(

karma...

karma seems to me coming at me full steam...im finally realizing what my feelings are for a man i met a while back and I cannot admit them to him. I need to sort them out before I get the guts together to admit my feelings to him and to the public. BUT I do know at this time that this is a WHOLE waste of time. The reason being is because I know that my feelings are not mutual. He is one of the rare men that came across my path...and it is frustrating that I can never have him the way that I want to. the best thing to do is to forget about him and let him go. less heartache on me.