WHY???

WHY does it now have to feel like im not needed anymore? I have now moved here to NH.....been here since may of this year and now why do i feel like im not needed?? should I move back to bangor?? i know those thoughts are going to be floating through my mind for the next few days....because i need to think big time.

Anesa

hello to all

well hello to all: I am back and all settled down. i am in the wonderful city of Dover NH and have some GREAT friends in life.

Since my ex left me for that damned TWO TIMING BIMBO who was my supposed best friend....i have been taking my time and assessing my life into ONE STATEMENT...I dont need anyone from the opposite sex. Men are a waste of time and it damages the ego. they are better off as friends. NO I AM NOT A LESBIAN. dont even go there. I am better off as a woman by myself and having MALE FRIENDS. One man snuck into my male heart and he broke it: im still slowly repairing it. **starts to cry from the memories**
Yes I will always love him.
Rob(The man who broke my heart)...he basically started going out with a girl when i was DROPPING hints LEFT AND RIGHT all over job corps. i can see right into it....rob never loved me...he was playing right with my emotions. he was never a friend to me much less than ever loving me at all. He says he wants "intimacy"?? Yeah right. hes gonna remain a 38 year old virgin for the rest of his fu**ing life.....pardon my language. =((

Now i feel better......a little.

im gonna have to get in a better mood someway. :(

Anesa

time to vent

Well i dont know what the hell is going on but it seems like i am being kicked to the curb again. I have been in a WONDERFUL and MEANINGFUL relationship for the past 6 1/2 months with a GREAT man and YET he tells me than he doesnt feel the "spark" that should be between us. Talk about bullshit. in the last 1/2 month he wont touch me. not one bit. I know in my deep down gut that he is seeing someone else on the sly. in all the relationships that I have been in since I started dating since I was 16, this is the ONE that I have been the most happiest in. he wont talk to me and he wont touch me. first he says that he wants to stay and "help me". NOW, last night he says hes gonna possibly send me back to bangor. but I can see right through his BS and head games. if he is going to be like this i am going to eliminate myself from his life. he wont be able to find me......when I get my cellphone i wont give him the number. it will save him the pain of dealing with me. he says that I will find someone better than him. yeah right. bull. im not that lucky. NO WOMAN is that lucky. I DO ADMIT that I DO love him and I ALWAYS WILL........but I know that he will never come back. Im not holding my breath.